= LifE Of a GaL =

hi guys.

long time no see. yah i finished exams for a week liao. but i was busy playing, watching vcd and doing things tt i restricted myself from doing during exams that i didn't update. actually, i did watch vcd and play during exams also... i will die if i study all day lah. but i do those one hour study one hour play... maybe it sounds very 'playful' for an exam period, but i guess that's the limit that i can set for myself.

during this exam period, i realised something about myself: i can't sit still. i will die if i read for more than an hour each time.

during this period, i also keep deceiving myself. deceiving myself that work one hour, play one hour, studying depends on quality, not quantity.

during this period, i successfully deceived myself to believe the above fact. and i still believe.

during this period, i also realised that studying too much math in jc will really kill you. like my first paper, organisational behaviour and design. it's not tt i never seen the past yr papers before. it is not that i nv think about how to answer the past year questions. i realised, i really really dunno how to start an essay. or rather, i dunno whether i should write in essay format either. i was staring at the qn, i wanted to write the ans, but i dunno how to start. you can't start by "Poverty is not blahblahblah...". i will never finish the paper. this is not GP. and somehow, looking at the lined paper, it seems that you HAVE to write in essay format. starting with "The ways to motivate a person are: (1), (2), (3)..." seems so scientific. this is not science, nor math. after much consideration in what seems like a little time (since time is precious in exams), i decided to write scientifically. i dun care that my answer is not nice, not grammatically correct, not a fanciful essay. i just wrote what i think, like what i do in math. i dunno if this is the right way to write. but pls, i have no time to think of a heading, a body and conclusion. and there goes. i wrote in the same way for all my papers.

before exams, i am afraid i will stare blankly at the questions the next day, at a loss of how to ans. i even dreamt that i would stare blankly at my biz law paper. during exams, you would be there, thinking, you can't fail this, cos it counts towards your honors, even if you are at a loss what to write, you will be anxiously flipping books, hoping that you would find an answer there. i happily copied here and there from the book, at the end of the exam, i dun even noe whether i ans correctly, or whether i should have copied. i would think sadly, this is not math, there is no right and wrong ans.

after exams, you would be worrying about seeing your results. i do not wan to see them cos i am no longer certain of the grades that i would get, unlike math. nutting is right nor wrong, it's your luck, and whether you argue with reason. i do not wan to see them also because i felt that i didn't work hard enough, also because i felt that i most prob had done badly.

funny how no matter before, during or after exams, you would worry about the next thing that will happen.

during this exams, i realised how guys study. i wonder last time how guys dun make notes, they read and read, and they say finished studying. cool. cos i did that this exams. i realised i will have no time to make notes. just reading would take up all my time. i also sort of realised, making notes really doesn't help, unless u have lots of time to write and read your notes after tt.

during this exams, i really realised that consistent work will really make your exams easier. consistent reading at least.

but after all this, i am still wondering. is quality really better than quantity time spent on studying? don't be too hasty to say yes. did you ever try it? how do you know it is better?

how can people study 8 consecutive hours per day? is it all spent on studying? i did 8 hours, but not consecutive... i read for 8 hours, with breaks in btw, 8 hours is excluding the breaks. at the end of the day, my head really aches manz... like after i absorb too much info, my head says it can't absorb anymore. really. i really think those pple who can study consec 8 hours are crazy.

and now, i am still worrying about seeing my exam results. i haven even been on the website to see how to get results. can you believe it.