guess it's a long time since i blog... cos i was busy having fun, enjoying my last few days after my exams. it was play, play, and more play every day, every night. the though of not having exams for the next 8 months just feels great, and no more studying, and no more worrying about not doing well for the papers... of course will still worry when the results come out, but that's for next year.

luckily pl didn't hold a super detailed and long meeting today, i was just in dhs for a few hours and i almost couldn't take it le. my right eye is swollen like siao and it just hurts all the time. it just gets worse when i bend down to get things. guess maybe it's the blood rushing to my head. and the crappy eye drop just makes my throat have a weird taste, that makes u lose ur appetite. and the greatest thing is since the eye is 'recovering' in a sense, it just feels like there's something stuck in your eye, which i guess is pus. it just sucks.

and the most interesting is, i am going overseas tml. totally great. i dun feel like going, specially in this state. but what to do? my mum will never hear of it, cos the trip is just so damn expensive. so, too bad.

just to mention, i will be out of town from 28 nov to 5 dec, so anything just leave a message in my handphone, i will get back to ya once i reach sg on 5th.

argh stupid eye. it just keep on hurting. argh.

NO MORE PAPERS!
NO MORE RESTRICTIONS!
PLAY!!!!!!!!!!1
yeshyeshyeshyeshyesh....!

aiyah, 1 more paper. but do i care?!?! it's crap! i dun care! i am gg to play! i am mad! ARH!

Can finally go out enjoy myself. YESH! can finally go out PLAY! can finally go for sj meetings and activities! can finally watch movies! can finally shop! can finally read books without worries! can finally play game till i song! watch vcd!

there's a lot of things i can finally do!

though physics wasn't tt great, i not gotta care. fmath okie.

okie. while i enjoy this beautiful moment, it's time i set my grades prediction.

i remember 6 years ago i did this once, and i was real happy when it surpass my expectations. though this time most prob it wun surpass, at least i just wanna do it.

Prelim grades:
Cmath - B
Fmath - O
Physics - C
GP - C6

Before exams target grade:
Cmath - A
Fmath - C
Physics - B
GP - B4

After exams think i will get:
Cmath - A
Fmath - B
Physics - D
GP - D7

But still hope i will get:
Cmath - A
Fmath - A
Physics - C
GP - C6

weird. i feel weird also. physics lost to fmath. haha i dunno why. really.

and don't laugh at me for doing this. i think it will really be comforting when it comes to getting my results, cos even if i get better than the 3rd category i will also be happy.

the final countdown... let the countdown begin! 30 hours left.

whenever i am sad, or down, i will sit by my wardrobe, take out a straw and fold a straw star. i will put the star into a bottle, and somehow i will feel calmer, happier. this method never fails me. it's just putting all ur unhappiness, all your sorrows into the bottle, and seal it up with a cap.

maybe it's the effort, and focus and concentration that you have to have while folding a straw star well. to make sure it's really tight, and well folded, it takes concentration. one stray thought will just cause u to fumble and ur star have to be redone.

the sianz feeling is here again. HAIZ.... the '2 days left' thingy doesn't work anymore. the sinking feeling rises in my heart once again. 2 DAYS LEFT! the feeling is still there. there i told u it doesn't work anymore. 2 MORE PAPERS! it doesn't work. 1 DAY of exams to END IT ALL! worked a little.

the sec4s go for chalet le. wish them gd luck have fun. though they wun see it, whatever.

looking forward to the trip to NZ? not really. thinking of it just gives me a tired feeling. i can't even be bothered to read the iteinary. (dunno how to spell, not in the mood to spell it rite.) just thinking i am flying off on the 3rd day free from my exams, just doesn't seem to excite me. and knowing that i haven't end exams, and i am flying off this very week just makes my brain and heart confused. i just feel tired.

the idea that my schedule is going to be cramped for the next whole month just makes me feel tired. even though there's no more exams then. the thought that i am abandoning the chance to go the ex 08 chalet cos i got jnco just makes me feel sianz.

haiz. i guess one do feel more emotional during exam period. maybe i will enjoy myself on the NZ trip. maybe i will enjoy myself in jnco (i have a weird sense of what is enjoyment(i dun give a damn whether there's such a word)), and maybe the air of freedom that i inhale after exams is much stronger than what i am expecting now. even after saying all these, i just can't be happy for now. maybe i will be real happy on wed after my papers. and i will be even more happy on thu (i think it's the same cos i dun give a damn about design paper).

let's see if thinking about this will help. on wed after my exams i will play maple story till 1 a.m. then i will sleep till 11, wake up read a little of design. go to school, exam, then perhaps have dinner with new 08. yes! this helps. MAPLE STORY!!!!!!!!!!! does this help? haha. games just cheer me up.

I NEED MOTIVATION! I NEED HAPPINESS! I NEED THE POWER TO STUDY TO COME INTO MY LIFE NOW!

i need the power i experienced on last thursday. i studied my fmath paper 1 in time cos i suddenly love doing math qns tt day. dun ask me why, it just sort of came to me. after i did badly at physics. maybe cos it's pure math, and i love it more than mechanics. but i think there's a certain power helping me, from the lord maybe?

after typing crap, i just feel more happy. i wanna type on and on, but i need to bathe, play a while, settle down and start reading fluid physics. i just love crapping.......

Didn't update cos' I was busy mugging for physics and fmath cos I didn't really prepare for those 2 papers. To sum up, my physics was like shit, I think I minused like at least 30 marks out of 90 for paper2? damn demoralising one, gotta pia for paper3. fmath paper 1 was alright. i think it was the best fmath paper 1 i ever did, but i must also say that my fmath paper 1 always very lan. haha, like the fmath paper 1 i ever did is during tj prelims? and i got like 40... haha.

think my fmath more hope than physics, so should concentrate a lot on paper2 and get my B there, then physics no choice, hopefully a C there. aiming for ABC, it's rather low, but at least, it will be the best results i ever got ever since i started my jc life. haha.

just woke up at 10, and was playing maple story yesterday till 2 a.m. The graphics are really cute! Today is the start of the 4 day break where mugging begins. just cleared my room of pure math notes. No more PURE MATH! YESSSH! Though uni may learn, but nevermind, I like pure math. I like stats. Noo mechanics for me. Eeeks. Haaa.

jiayou peach! meanwhile i might be studying till i turn mad, so caution! a mad gal is on the loose.

WAH!!!!!i missed the last episode of the ren wo ao you today!!!! i dinch noe it's showing at 9 p.m.... thought only show the votes only... =( sobzzzzz. i never missed an episode of it and i missed the last episode!!! WAH!!!!! haizzzzzzz. vv sad.

yeah! forgot to mention, 8 more days to freedom! i think i am crazy today, blog so much. i am hyper! cos i slept 4 hours in the afternoon =x (all the econs pple dun kill me!) study study study! jiayou! jiayou!

'the champion' ended! no ending!!!! zhengkang is with annie, not with jingwen. but kaiwei will choose who?!?! we determine the ending. wah liew! can't they just decide? haha cos' i dunno.

You are 53% Libra

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

haha. so little? eh, too bad. i tell u this thing isn't accurate! hahaha. i think i am too bored so i try out this kinda things. today is the last episode of 'the champion'! though i have to agree with serene, that thsi show is going too fast. they gotta go to an island and train up, win the seagulls, and yixuan and jingwen are going to compete, and i think annie is leaving, with jingwen back to zhengkang? and yixuan back to kaiwei? and jiajun gotta recover from his injuries? and all these in 45 minutes? i say this is mad. haha. i wish it was longer. =P

You Are a Social Blogger!

Your blog is more of a semi-private affair for your friends. It's how you keep in touch... sharing stories, jokes, and pics.

What kind of blogger are you?

really? i thought i was a crap blogger. =P

You Are From Venus

You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious. A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host. You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a frind to all. Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform. Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.

What Planet Are You From?

men are from mars and women are from venus. so! i have shown that i am a real woman! haha? does that count?

A1 - Walking In The Rain Lyrics
[BEN:] SITTING BY THE WINDOW
SINGING SONGS OF LOVE
WISHING YOU WERE HERE
BECAUSE THE MEMORY'S NOT ENOUGH
WEAR MY MASK IN SILENCE
PRETENDING I'M ALRIGHT
IF YOU COULD SEE THEN YOU WOULD BE
HERE STANDING BY MY SIDE

IT MAY BE HARD TO BELIEVE
BUT GIRL YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I NEED
IT MAY BE HARD ALONG THE WAY
IT'S THIS FEELING I GET
WHEN BLUE SKIES TURN TO GREY

FEELS LIKE I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO WASH AWAY THE PAIN
CAUSE I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SHELTER
CAUSE I'M FADING AWAY
AND BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN

[CHRISTIAN:] EVERY SINGLE HOUR
OF EVERY SINGLE DAY
I NEED TO CRY, MY EYES ARE DRY
I'VE CRIED MY TEARS AWAY
CAN'T HELP BUT REMEMBER
HOW YOU MADE ME FEEL
YOU DRESSED MY SOUL AND MADE ME WHOLE
YOU MADE MY LIFE COMPLETE

IT MAY BE HARD TO BELIEVE
BUT GIRL YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I NEED
IT MAY BE HARD ALONG THE WAY
IT'S THIS FEELING I GET
WHEN BLUE SKIES TURN TO GREY

FEELS LIKE I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO WASH AWAY THE PAIN
CAUSE I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SHELTER
CAUSE I'M FADING AWAY
AND BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN

[BEN:] OF ALL WE'VE SAID AND DONE
REMAINS THE MEMORIES OF DAYS
WHEN LIFE WAS FUN
BUT NOW WHEN YOU ARE GONE
I SIT ALONE TO WATCH THE
SETTING OF THE SUN
FEELS LIKE I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO WASH AWAY THE PAIN
CAUSE I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SHELTER
CAUSE I'M FADING AWAY
AND BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN

[CHRISTIAN:] I SAID BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN

This is how I felt. Cos' I am drenched from head to toe... crappy rain. Now I feel clean after a nice hot shower.

Cmath paper 2 was okie, in fact i felt more confident about this paper than the paper1, though my pure math is better. i guess i was sort of showing the examiners that it was a boring paper cos' i keep yawning. and rolled my eyes at every other question in the paper, haha. cos i was looking at the apples question in stats, i was wondering, abt the 2002 stats qn, also on apples. my mind wad thinking, 'duh, dun they have any other fruits other than apples?' then when i was stumped at q27 the crappy qn, but though i spent a lot of time there, like maybe 35 to 45 minutes, (no lah, i finished le then went back... not so mad to spend so much time on the qn before i finished the paper), but after talking to some people made me convinced that my answer should be right. i didn't know how to do at first, i was thinking about what jy said abt his own paper, he did a reverse of normal dist prob, so idea struck me and i did the reverse of confidence interval. haha. and i did the OR qn for stats, but pple did EITHER more? dunno, i vv scared i make mistakes in DRV. and almost every fmath student i meet says he/she did applied math, and claims it's so easy so easy.... haha, but i know my limits. if i did applied i will die worse than in stats. cos i never practise mechanics at all. now left 2 subs, comes the worse bulk of the exams. my best subject is over, i haven started on physics, only studied a topic for fmath and did no practice papers, and dunno what in the hell. but now i need to sleep. cos' i slept vv late last nite, cos' i drank the crappy vitamin c water that somehow cause me insomia(liddat spell?). somehow coffee makes me wanna sleep. dun ask me why. i am weird. haha.

The final countdown.... 9 days left!! i didn't know weiwei's way of counting down for exams is quite a motivation as well. haha.!

now for the last second episode of 'the champion'!!!

yesh! my mum is making peach jap jelly!!! i haven had peach for aggggeeeesss. peach! *jumps around in joy!

lala. i am still slacking. wake up u stupid momo. there's cmath in 2 days, physics in 4 days, fmath in 5 days.!!!! i haven done a fmath paper 1 yet! stupid slacker crappy peach.

no more mahjong for u! no more pool! Studeeeeeeee! 5 more days and it will be 2 papers left with 1 no use paper as well! can relax after fmath paper1! then just 10 more days to freedom!(excluding the no use paper) and 11 days to complete freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!! gogogo!

looking forward to the end of 10 days. start the countdown! this is more exciting than the annual countdown held for xmas or new yr. this is the countdown to ultimate freedom for 7 months! YES! 10 days in exchange for 7 months! what a bargain!

i think i am getting mad from all the counting in cmath. HAHA.

another slack day passed. at least my comp is back. pretty happy with it. and i downloaded skype! the 'online phone' that allows anyone online to talk to each other without extra charge. great for communicating with esther who's overseas! =P

i did say i wanted to watch singapore idol. just that i didn't know it's till 9.30p.m. so i watched only half of it cos i wanna watch 'the champion'. sianz i missed daphne with ni yao de ai. wonders if she got sing tt badly. and wonders who got kicked out. or is it the results is announced another day one?

next tuesday is the end of 'the champion' le! there's a competition btw jingwen and yixuan! wow!

i didn't study much today, just couldn't get quantum into my head. argh.

haha, interestingly, all my best friends dun take physics. egg, fish, eskimo, esth. haha.

oh i gotta quit crapping. i wanna some food. a bit hungry. should cont studying my physics tonight.

oh my god, i gotta watch singapore idol tml. yah i dun usually watch lah, but tml is asian pop. i saw the 'ad' abt it just now on tv. yikes, slyvester is gg to sing an jing by jay, olinda is singing some song by deng li jun, and the malay guy (dunno his name) is gg to sing a malay song. and guess what daphne is singing. ni yao de ai by penny dai, yes the ending song in meteor garden 1. and the ad plays samples of their singing. OH MY GOSH. seriously i am a fan of meteor, and i heard that song a million times, and the way daphne sings it in that little 'sample', she sounds totally horrible! i bet she's the next to be kicked out. yikes. she can't even pronounce the ni yao de ai in chinese properly, much less sing the song. oh man, chinese can't speak chinese, this is one typical example.

jiayou! today is cmath paper 1. okie lah. though i did the stationary pts qn wrong, i think careless haha. and the differential eqn, careless also. the complex no. forgot to include the other solution. haha. on the whole max minus 20 marks liddat lah. should be able to hit a. hopefully. as long as i dun make big mistakes in my paper 2.

after today, the start of the super mugging week. 7 days without exams, also mean 7 days of intensive studying. it's time to start on physics, and also the fmath paper 1... jiayou! after next week is over, only left 3 papers, including one crappy paper called design. haa. which i don't intend to study much. gotta declare holiday once physics paper 3 and fmath paper 2 is over. haha.

oh my brother so nice. he offered to help me buy today's lunch if he's back early today, though in the end he didn't buy, but i think the offer is so nice. love him so much. =P

now i typing on his comp. cos' my comp reformat failed. haha. so sending the whole pc thing to someone to settle it. gotta get it back by around thursday. meanwhile will be sharing comp with my bro.

jiayou!!!! for me and for everyone out there having exams...

Why is it...

Why is it that when it comes to exam I don't feel like studying?
Why is it that I will do anything, anything to get away from studying?
Why is it that I have slacked all week last week and today I realised I actually haven't done a thing?
Why is it I feel that I am studying hard, and yet after looking at what I have done, I have not?
Why is it that I play more during exams than I do during normal school days?
Why is it that I will never keep up to the tasks I set for myself?
Why is it that I have lost all my self confidence ever since I went into dhs?
Why is there exams?

As you can see from all the why is its I have just typed, I am just blog procrastinating. (woohoo, new word I used!)

~I cannot stay this way. Gotta fail my A's if I do. Argh, stupid momo, it's just 16 more days to the ends of a's! There's 8 papers! Come on, it's only 16 days of hard work, then you will have 1 month of fun! Consoling myself huh? 1 month of fun... 8 days taken up by a family vacation, okie I admit vacations are supposed to be fun, but the thought of my grandma tagging along isn't my favourite idea of a vacation. Fine I am not close to her lahz. 6 days taken by a precamp and camp. 3 days taken up by a supposedly seniors retreat. Fun? I dunno. Then left about a total of 15 days of freedom for myself to hang out. It's quite short compared to the long break I had after my O's, but one should never compare. Be thankful that you have a break! 15 days still including the 2-3 days supposedly orientation preparation. Aiyah, 15 days loh! Who wanna go out with u to hang out, crappy girl? Later you find urself lazing around at home for the 15 days, cos' no one asks ya out. Of cos crappy taz will be out with the crappy momo, haha... Oh great. I realised I haven't had peach for ages!~

As you can see, I am going a little nuts. But I swear I didn't eat nuts these days. They are fattening. Even though I am talking a lot of crap, I am just going on without any point of focus. Cos' I just wanna type on and on. And I swear I didn't eat crabs either.

Argh. What am I doing here? Study!!! Where's the mood? Argh I am in holiday mood. Dotz.

aiyah. headache today. totally bad. it's been on all day. crappy.

feel very bad cos someone bought me a cake... when i didn't do much. haiz.

wanna reformat my comp. sianz.

headache! izzit watch too much tv? or cooped up at home? or what. why headache?!?!

okie i am mad.

The GP nightmare...

Haha, the subject says it all. I flopped GP lah. The composition is enough to kill me. Out of the 12 topics I totally dunno what to write. Had to settle for recycling no matter how much I didn't want to write it, even though I had very little points to write about and blah.

How far do u think recycling helps in the problem of waste?
-My stand was that recycling helps in the prob, but only recycling is not enough, must be accompanied by reusing and reducing.
-I wrote a paragraph on recycling paper, i say it is gd in this case cos tons of paper is used each day.(okie how crap can that be)
-Another para on recycling water, talking abt NEwater, saying that other than recycling water, reusing and reducing should be done and gave some examples on how it can be done.
-Then i tired of materials, i talk about recycling campaigns. I raised how recycling is done in various countries... japan, america and singapore. then just say usually these campaigns will include reusing and reducing as well to achieve maximum effect blah. the 3Rs campaign...
-Then realised i got half hour left, decided to add in a para on waste gases cannot be recycled today yet, so reducing the usage of stuff like electricity will reduce amt of waste gases.

Does this sound like a GP essay to you? It sounds like disorganised stack of rubbish. Well. What can I say.

After the demoralising composition, I was all set to do my compre better. It was quite okie, but my AQ as usual is a bit crappy lan. Dunno what I was writing as usual, and I often wondered how come someone can do their compre well and their AQ well in 1.5 hours. The AQ is like a compo itself. My compo itself took 1 hour to write 2 pages, well, how long can I write an AQ then? I set with 25 minutes write an AQ, wrote 1.5 pages. Why so long? I wrote crap lah... haha.

After the whole day, I am convinced that my GP papers have flopped. Oh well. Another course of English in uni. Just make sure I don't fail GP and let me get into university can le. Study 3 years of English I also don't mind. I will read newspapers from after my A's lah. As long as I don't flop it again in university. Provided I can get into university.

haha, all thanks to fish again...



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oh well. tml is gp. jiayou!